1 00:00:15,560 --> 00:00:18,520 2 00:00:18,520 --> 00:00:21,560 3 00:00:23,480 --> 00:00:26,240 What she'd see in me 4 00:00:28,200 --> 00:00:30,880 5 00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:37,960 6 00:00:39,000 --> 00:00:44,520 7 00:00:44,520 --> 00:00:47,640 8 00:00:47,640 --> 00:00:49,400 Morning, you. 9 00:00:49,400 --> 00:00:52,280 Morning. 10 00:00:55,240 --> 00:01:00,360 11 00:01:00,360 --> 00:01:03,920 12 00:01:03,920 --> 00:01:08,440 13 00:01:08,440 --> 00:01:10,400 14 00:01:10,400 --> 00:01:15,200 SHE GRUNTS, PHONE RINGS 15 00:01:16,840 --> 00:01:19,360 SHE GROANS, CLATTERING 16 00:01:21,120 --> 00:01:23,240 HE GRUNTS 17 00:01:25,360 --> 00:01:28,080 'Hey, hey... Yeah, no, I am a legend.' 18 00:01:29,600 --> 00:01:32,080 SHE SIGHS 19 00:01:49,240 --> 00:01:52,280 Your da is on his way. Shit! 20 00:01:54,080 --> 00:01:55,840 Oh, fuck! 21 00:01:57,840 --> 00:02:00,560 Sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry. I'm just going for a quick piss. 22 00:02:00,560 --> 00:02:02,520 I was here first. I was here first! 23 00:02:02,520 --> 00:02:04,360 I don't care! You're such a little princess. 24 00:02:04,360 --> 00:02:06,040 You're such a dick, just get outta me way! 25 00:02:06,040 --> 00:02:07,840 Get out of my face, you'll be there for hours. 26 00:02:07,840 --> 00:02:09,640 Are we gridlocked? I wanna wash myself. 27 00:02:09,640 --> 00:02:11,480 Did we not do a rota? You use all the hot water. 28 00:02:11,480 --> 00:02:13,920 You always leave your pubes in the shower! I'm gonna be late. 29 00:02:13,920 --> 00:02:15,880 Oh, the pair of you, stop! HE GROANS 30 00:02:15,880 --> 00:02:18,400 Shiv. Happy birthday, love. 31 00:02:18,400 --> 00:02:20,080 Oh, happy birthday, Shiv. 32 00:02:20,080 --> 00:02:21,680 Happy birthday, love! 33 00:02:21,680 --> 00:02:24,200 Happy birthday, Shiv. Happy birthday, Shiv. Thanks! 34 00:02:24,200 --> 00:02:27,120 Sorry, Ant. Ha! Bitch! 35 00:02:27,120 --> 00:02:28,680 A bit early for that language, what? 36 00:02:34,960 --> 00:02:36,680 DOOR CLOSES 37 00:02:55,880 --> 00:02:57,720 Someone close, love? 38 00:02:58,640 --> 00:03:01,920 Yeah. Yeah. 39 00:03:03,000 --> 00:03:05,080 Though, sometimes, I just come for the peace. 40 00:03:06,320 --> 00:03:07,520 Yeah. 41 00:03:09,680 --> 00:03:13,000 It's a good reminder, isn't it? How quickly life goes. Mm. 42 00:03:15,160 --> 00:03:17,760 You probably don't need reminding. 43 00:03:17,760 --> 00:03:20,480 Not that you're near death or anything. I mean... 44 00:03:20,480 --> 00:03:23,960 I just meant we're not here for a long time. I know. 45 00:03:23,960 --> 00:03:27,240 And we're not necessarily here for a good time, either. 46 00:03:27,240 --> 00:03:28,760 We're here to... 47 00:03:30,320 --> 00:03:33,280 We're here to be the best versions of ourselves. 48 00:03:33,280 --> 00:03:34,520 And it's a choice. 49 00:03:35,600 --> 00:03:38,400 Be a better sister, be a better daughter, 50 00:03:38,400 --> 00:03:40,440 be a better... human. 51 00:03:42,400 --> 00:03:45,040 And, yes, it takes hard work, and, yes, it takes discipline, 52 00:03:45,040 --> 00:03:48,320 but you've got to keep trying and trying and trying 53 00:03:48,320 --> 00:03:50,040 every single day, 54 00:03:50,040 --> 00:03:52,480 until eventually, you... Oh... 55 00:03:54,320 --> 00:03:56,440 Would you like a bit of spliff, love? 56 00:03:56,440 --> 00:03:57,960 Takes the edge off. 57 00:03:57,960 --> 00:03:59,520 No. 58 00:04:00,720 --> 00:04:02,040 No, thank you. 59 00:04:10,440 --> 00:04:12,240 So... 60 00:04:12,240 --> 00:04:14,520 I've been coming to these meetings 61 00:04:14,520 --> 00:04:17,120 for... seven months now. 62 00:04:18,840 --> 00:04:21,520 Don't usually say too much... 63 00:04:21,520 --> 00:04:23,280 but I promised my daughter. 64 00:04:25,120 --> 00:04:26,640 It's her birthday today. 65 00:04:28,600 --> 00:04:29,960 Thirty-six. 66 00:04:31,040 --> 00:04:33,800 How did that happen? RIPPLED LAUGHTER 67 00:04:33,800 --> 00:04:37,160 Thirty-six! I mean, that's nearly 40. 68 00:04:37,160 --> 00:04:39,040 LAUGHTER Yeah. 69 00:04:40,320 --> 00:04:42,400 When I think of myself at her age - 70 00:04:42,400 --> 00:04:45,960 four kids, a husband, a house... 71 00:04:45,960 --> 00:04:47,120 a career... 72 00:04:48,280 --> 00:04:50,160 But she's doing it her way. 73 00:04:51,880 --> 00:04:54,600 Erm... I grew up at a time 74 00:04:54,600 --> 00:04:58,040 when people didn't really talk about their feelings. 75 00:04:58,040 --> 00:05:02,240 This country was like a conspiracy of silence. 76 00:05:03,640 --> 00:05:05,880 And for women... SHE SCOFFS 77 00:05:10,840 --> 00:05:15,720 Last year, my neighbour Pam was murdered by her husband. 78 00:05:18,480 --> 00:05:22,280 And no-one even noticed... It's a disgrace! ..except me. 79 00:05:24,360 --> 00:05:26,080 I'm going to be a witness at the trial. 80 00:05:28,000 --> 00:05:32,600 But that's how little women's lives matter in this country. 81 00:05:32,600 --> 00:05:38,000 We can be murdered by our husbands, and no-one even notices! Shocking. 82 00:05:39,880 --> 00:05:44,680 Well, let me tell you something... I'm done being silent. 83 00:05:44,680 --> 00:05:47,120 I'm done being buried! 84 00:05:47,120 --> 00:05:49,400 I'm here. MURMURED ASSENT 85 00:05:49,400 --> 00:05:51,560 I have a voice. 86 00:05:51,560 --> 00:05:55,240 And from now on, I'm ready to roar! 87 00:05:55,240 --> 00:05:56,800 APPLAUSE Wow! 88 00:05:56,800 --> 00:05:59,360 Well done! 89 00:06:01,040 --> 00:06:03,400 Whoo! 90 00:06:03,400 --> 00:06:05,880 Thank you, Bernie! 91 00:06:05,880 --> 00:06:07,880 Powerful stuff there! 92 00:06:16,400 --> 00:06:18,440 You handled that really well. What? 93 00:06:21,080 --> 00:06:23,760 Her share. What was wrong with it? 94 00:06:25,240 --> 00:06:27,960 Well, it wasn't exactly about alcoholism. 95 00:06:27,960 --> 00:06:32,680 Oh, well, it was about how society covertly silences and devalues women 96 00:06:32,680 --> 00:06:35,080 to such an extent that a weight of toxic shame 97 00:06:35,080 --> 00:06:36,880 is placed on their shoulders so extreme, 98 00:06:36,880 --> 00:06:38,960 the only outlet for many is addiction. 99 00:06:38,960 --> 00:06:40,080 You know? 100 00:06:41,280 --> 00:06:44,640 Yeah... in a roundabout way. 101 00:06:46,040 --> 00:06:48,800 Shiv. How do you think I did? 102 00:06:49,840 --> 00:06:51,480 Yeah, good. 103 00:06:51,480 --> 00:06:53,040 For a first time, that was... 104 00:06:53,040 --> 00:06:55,960 I think it really struck a chord with people. 105 00:06:55,960 --> 00:06:57,680 They wanna take me to lunch. 106 00:06:57,680 --> 00:07:01,440 Who? Billy - very magnetic. And Therese. 107 00:07:02,640 --> 00:07:05,880 They're practically fighting over who's gonna sponsor me. 108 00:07:05,880 --> 00:07:09,960 It's mad! Yeah, it's really mad. 109 00:07:09,960 --> 00:07:11,760 You didn't want to join? No, no. 110 00:07:11,760 --> 00:07:15,440 Karen and I, actually, are going for some... Bernie, you're on Wikipedia! 111 00:07:15,440 --> 00:07:17,920 No, I'm not. You are. Am I?! 112 00:07:19,160 --> 00:07:20,880 I have to see this. 113 00:07:22,160 --> 00:07:24,600 Oh, I'll see you tonight at the party, love. 114 00:07:25,960 --> 00:07:27,320 Wear something nice. 115 00:07:33,480 --> 00:07:34,880 DOOR CLOSES 116 00:07:42,840 --> 00:07:44,840 You never thought of putting a little kitchen 117 00:07:44,840 --> 00:07:46,800 out in the shed there, Tom, did you? 118 00:07:48,240 --> 00:07:51,360 No. And it's not a shed. 119 00:07:51,360 --> 00:07:52,920 Oh, I know but... HE CHUCKLES 120 00:07:54,400 --> 00:07:56,280 ..you know. Yeah. 121 00:08:01,840 --> 00:08:04,880 It was only meant to be a temporary... 122 00:08:08,040 --> 00:08:09,480 Have you seen the butter? 123 00:08:09,480 --> 00:08:11,520 Butter dish to your left. 124 00:08:14,040 --> 00:08:17,520 You could probably put one in now. Little galley job. 125 00:08:19,200 --> 00:08:21,920 Don't think there's room. Oh, you'd be surprised. 126 00:08:21,920 --> 00:08:26,000 You see some of these studios in New York and Hong Kong - 127 00:08:26,000 --> 00:08:28,400 their use of space is inspiring. 128 00:08:28,400 --> 00:08:30,440 Happy to lend a hand. 129 00:08:32,280 --> 00:08:35,840 You may not expect it from a man of letters, but... 130 00:08:35,840 --> 00:08:37,680 I do love me DIY. 131 00:08:37,680 --> 00:08:40,120 Yeah, I'll keep it in mind. 132 00:08:41,480 --> 00:08:43,480 "Good with a bit of wood", as they say. 133 00:08:52,600 --> 00:08:54,200 Is this today's? 134 00:08:56,200 --> 00:08:59,400 So great she's coming to meetings now, properly, 135 00:08:59,400 --> 00:09:02,880 and making friends and... you know. 136 00:09:02,880 --> 00:09:04,840 Do you think they were really fighting over her 137 00:09:04,840 --> 00:09:06,120 cos isn't that against the...? 138 00:09:06,120 --> 00:09:07,760 Listen, love, I know it's weird for you. 139 00:09:07,760 --> 00:09:09,800 It's not weird, it's great. 140 00:09:09,800 --> 00:09:11,480 But like I said at the start, if you wanna 141 00:09:11,480 --> 00:09:14,080 do recovery with your ma, you gotta set some boundaries. 142 00:09:14,080 --> 00:09:17,760 I have set boundaries. Firm... boundaries. 143 00:09:17,760 --> 00:09:20,840 We always go to different meetings. So, what were you doing there today? 144 00:09:20,840 --> 00:09:22,440 Moral support. She was nervous. 145 00:09:22,440 --> 00:09:25,320 Well, you've done moral support now, you don't need to do it again. 146 00:09:25,320 --> 00:09:27,960 So, let's let your ma stand on her own two feet, 147 00:09:27,960 --> 00:09:30,240 and let's you and me talk about something fucking else 148 00:09:30,240 --> 00:09:32,520 for five minutes! Hi, Alex! 149 00:09:32,520 --> 00:09:36,040 Ladies! Hi, Alex. Oh, is that a new tattoo? 150 00:09:36,040 --> 00:09:38,600 Mm, no. Don't think so, Karen. Oh. 151 00:09:38,600 --> 00:09:41,920 I thought it was for Shiv. It's her birthday. Is it? 152 00:09:41,920 --> 00:09:45,040 I won't ask you how old. Thanks. Appreciate that. 153 00:09:45,040 --> 00:09:46,840 Any plans for the big day? 154 00:09:46,840 --> 00:09:49,400 Er... just having a party, yeah. 155 00:09:52,120 --> 00:09:54,440 A family party, not a cool party. 156 00:09:55,360 --> 00:09:59,640 Aunts, uncles, brother, sister, mum... 157 00:09:59,640 --> 00:10:02,160 dad... She's big into family. 158 00:10:02,160 --> 00:10:05,880 Well, if you feel like mixing it up later... 159 00:10:05,880 --> 00:10:08,120 a mate of mine's playing a gig in Vicar Street... 160 00:10:10,720 --> 00:10:12,520 ..and I've a plus-one. 161 00:10:15,720 --> 00:10:17,680 Oh, God, right. 162 00:10:17,680 --> 00:10:22,000 Er... I wish I could, Alex, but, erm... 163 00:10:22,000 --> 00:10:24,560 this p-party could go on all night. 164 00:10:24,560 --> 00:10:26,600 My family are animals. SHE CHUCKLES 165 00:10:27,600 --> 00:10:30,320 He's playing Thursday as well. Thursday? Mm-hm. 166 00:10:30,320 --> 00:10:31,960 Yeah... 167 00:10:31,960 --> 00:10:34,320 No. No, I can't. 168 00:10:34,320 --> 00:10:36,920 And next Saturday? 169 00:10:36,920 --> 00:10:40,160 Saturdays are... bad for me. 170 00:10:40,160 --> 00:10:42,360 Yeah. No worries. 171 00:10:43,400 --> 00:10:46,120 Worth a shot, right? I'm free Saturday! 172 00:10:46,120 --> 00:10:48,800 I mean, my husband's having a colonoscopy, 173 00:10:48,800 --> 00:10:51,280 and I'm supposed to collect him from the hospital but... 174 00:10:51,280 --> 00:10:53,680 what are taxis fuckin' there for? LAUGHTER 175 00:10:53,680 --> 00:10:56,000 The usual, yeah? Yeah, great. No. 176 00:10:56,000 --> 00:10:58,040 Thank... No, no, no. On the house. 177 00:10:59,400 --> 00:11:01,560 Can't have... 178 00:11:01,560 --> 00:11:04,080 one of my regulars paying for it on their birthday. 179 00:11:05,000 --> 00:11:06,280 Here... 180 00:11:08,680 --> 00:11:11,760 Happy birthday, Shiv. Thanks, Alex... 181 00:11:11,760 --> 00:11:13,040 Good to see you. You too. 182 00:11:15,840 --> 00:11:18,480 What the fuck is wrong with you?! 183 00:11:18,480 --> 00:11:20,640 He's a fuckin' little beaut, he is! 184 00:11:25,240 --> 00:11:26,600 Anthony, what are you doing?! 185 00:11:28,240 --> 00:11:29,600 Er, market research. 186 00:11:32,240 --> 00:11:34,120 You were looking up holidays to Crete. 187 00:11:36,480 --> 00:11:38,680 Listen... 188 00:11:38,680 --> 00:11:41,120 we'd all like to go to Crete, OK. 189 00:11:41,120 --> 00:11:42,680 Get a bit of sun on our bellies. 190 00:11:43,680 --> 00:11:45,960 I know you lads like to put the time in at the gym. 191 00:11:47,240 --> 00:11:49,200 But we're in a serious situation. 192 00:11:49,200 --> 00:11:52,720 A serious situation? Nothing to panic about. Oh, good. 193 00:11:52,720 --> 00:11:55,040 But your job is on the line. What?! 194 00:11:55,040 --> 00:11:57,760 We're a one-man band here, we're not some fat-cat chain. 195 00:11:58,720 --> 00:12:02,760 Sales are down, properties coming through are... 196 00:12:02,760 --> 00:12:05,760 So, what do we do? Up your game. 197 00:12:05,760 --> 00:12:07,160 Big time. 198 00:12:08,320 --> 00:12:12,000 When you put a fish on the table... you get to stay for dinner. 199 00:12:13,320 --> 00:12:15,200 Get it? PHONE RINGS 200 00:12:15,200 --> 00:12:17,880 Now... HE INHALES SHARPLY 201 00:12:17,880 --> 00:12:20,520 ..I need you to do a leaflet drop. 202 00:12:23,640 --> 00:12:25,080 What? 203 00:12:25,080 --> 00:12:27,040 Well, I thought we had a kid for that. 204 00:12:27,040 --> 00:12:29,720 Oh, yeah, first of the cuts. 205 00:12:32,040 --> 00:12:33,360 Pfff... 206 00:12:33,360 --> 00:12:37,600 It's not that I don't wanna go on a date with a hot barista... Really? 207 00:12:37,600 --> 00:12:40,520 Cos you're doing a great job of making it seem that way. 208 00:12:40,520 --> 00:12:42,960 It's that, every time I've started drinking again, 209 00:12:42,960 --> 00:12:45,960 it's been because of some guy. Pfff... One guy. 210 00:12:45,960 --> 00:12:47,840 In a hat. No, there were others. 211 00:12:47,840 --> 00:12:50,320 In London, all those false starts I had. 212 00:12:50,320 --> 00:12:52,840 I had been doing great, be off the booze, 213 00:12:52,840 --> 00:12:56,200 go on a couple of dates and then... bam! 214 00:12:56,200 --> 00:12:58,960 You're different now. Karen, you are the one who said, 215 00:12:58,960 --> 00:13:03,040 "No dating in the first year of recovery!" Yeah, but he's a ride! 216 00:13:03,040 --> 00:13:05,560 Look, Karen... 217 00:13:08,560 --> 00:13:12,400 ..I've never been sober this long. I really don't wanna fuck up again. 218 00:13:14,400 --> 00:13:16,280 You're right. 219 00:13:16,280 --> 00:13:19,480 Just cos I've been looking at the same bald patch for 15 years 220 00:13:19,480 --> 00:13:21,040 as me life slips by. 221 00:13:22,280 --> 00:13:25,000 If you think a date with a hot man could risk your sobriety... 222 00:13:25,000 --> 00:13:28,280 I think a date could risk my sobriety. I... OK. 223 00:13:28,280 --> 00:13:30,680 Then we'll go somewhere else for coffee. 224 00:13:30,680 --> 00:13:34,360 Well, no. We don't have to... Oh, shit! Here's my boss. 225 00:13:34,360 --> 00:13:37,440 You're late, Shiv. See you. 226 00:13:43,760 --> 00:13:46,760 Put these up around the college and do a mail out ASAP. 227 00:13:46,760 --> 00:13:49,000 What's this? 228 00:13:49,000 --> 00:13:52,360 Another bursary for young, emerging artists. 229 00:13:53,400 --> 00:13:56,120 Seven grand... and a residency? 230 00:13:56,120 --> 00:13:58,600 You'd swear it was the fuckin' Turner Prize. 231 00:13:58,600 --> 00:14:00,840 Bibi, I'm locked out of my e-mails! 232 00:14:01,880 --> 00:14:03,360 SWEETLY: Coming! 233 00:14:04,320 --> 00:14:06,040 SOFTLY: Stupid bitch. 234 00:14:24,600 --> 00:14:27,640 Marion, hi. Is Rory...? What do you want? 235 00:14:28,760 --> 00:14:30,920 Er, just to, er... 236 00:14:30,920 --> 00:14:33,760 Well, is he there or...? Rory! 237 00:14:33,760 --> 00:14:37,640 That spunk-soaked evil slut is at the door for you. 238 00:14:37,640 --> 00:14:38,920 Caroline? 239 00:14:38,920 --> 00:14:40,360 CAROLINE SCOFFS 240 00:14:44,240 --> 00:14:47,360 Er... what are you doing here? 241 00:14:47,360 --> 00:14:50,360 The sub-letters moved out. I did the end-of-tenancy clean. 242 00:14:51,440 --> 00:14:53,720 These are yours. 243 00:14:53,720 --> 00:14:55,240 Oh... right. 244 00:14:57,440 --> 00:14:59,320 Look, Rory, you can't keep... 245 00:14:59,320 --> 00:15:00,720 SHE SIGHS 246 00:15:01,840 --> 00:15:03,880 It's been over six months. 247 00:15:03,880 --> 00:15:06,360 You know, it's not healthy to just... 248 00:15:06,360 --> 00:15:08,680 SOFTLY: ..mope around the house with your mother. 249 00:15:08,680 --> 00:15:11,000 You need to move on. I have, and... I gotta go. 250 00:15:11,000 --> 00:15:13,400 No, I just meant that... Er, thanks for dropping this over. 251 00:15:16,120 --> 00:15:17,680 SHE SIGHS 252 00:15:29,240 --> 00:15:30,880 PHONE RINGS 253 00:15:33,360 --> 00:15:34,800 Shane, hi! 'Hey.' 254 00:15:34,800 --> 00:15:36,720 You left early this morning. 255 00:15:43,920 --> 00:15:46,040 Is this all you got? 256 00:15:46,040 --> 00:15:48,880 I dropped 80 euro. Hello, hello! 257 00:15:48,880 --> 00:15:51,840 I got balloons. Oh, thank God! 258 00:15:53,160 --> 00:15:55,320 Where would you be without him, eh? 259 00:15:55,320 --> 00:15:57,120 Right! What? 260 00:15:57,120 --> 00:16:00,040 We have sparkling water, 261 00:16:00,040 --> 00:16:04,080 ginger ale... elderflower... 262 00:16:04,080 --> 00:16:06,880 cranberry... You know... 263 00:16:06,880 --> 00:16:08,560 SOFTLY: ..I was thinkin'... 264 00:16:08,560 --> 00:16:11,200 we don't need to say anything tonight. 265 00:16:11,200 --> 00:16:13,520 Oh, I'm not gonna make a big thing of it. 266 00:16:13,520 --> 00:16:15,280 Oh, no, I know, but... 267 00:16:15,280 --> 00:16:17,960 They need to know. Need to know what? 268 00:16:19,800 --> 00:16:21,640 WHISPERS: Just trust me, OK? 269 00:16:22,800 --> 00:16:24,200 DOORBELL RINGS 270 00:16:25,760 --> 00:16:27,960 Hey, Rita. Is that Caroline's car? 271 00:16:27,960 --> 00:16:29,680 I think so, yeah. 272 00:16:32,640 --> 00:16:34,200 Fair play to her. 273 00:16:40,560 --> 00:16:42,360 OK, I think we're getting a bit... 274 00:16:43,600 --> 00:16:47,800 My family are right inside. Yeah, well, this is hot, though... 275 00:16:47,800 --> 00:16:50,120 Yeah. Totally. 276 00:16:52,200 --> 00:16:54,680 I mean, we could just pop in for, like, five... 277 00:16:54,680 --> 00:16:57,760 Is that you, Caroline? Jesus! 278 00:16:57,760 --> 00:17:00,480 Hi, Aunty Ag! Who's that in the car with you? 279 00:17:01,640 --> 00:17:04,080 HE GROANS You're gonna have to come in now. 280 00:17:05,080 --> 00:17:07,760 I'm gonna need to, er... 281 00:17:07,760 --> 00:17:09,760 cool off first. You know? Oh. 282 00:17:09,760 --> 00:17:11,480 Great. 283 00:17:18,800 --> 00:17:21,600 Is that the engineer you were seeing? Shh! 284 00:17:21,600 --> 00:17:24,560 Or the guitarist? I thought he had a moustache. 285 00:17:24,560 --> 00:17:26,960 The guitarist was three months ago, Aunty Ag. Keep up. 286 00:17:27,960 --> 00:17:29,920 WHISPERS: Can you keep your voices down?! 287 00:17:29,920 --> 00:17:31,640 It was a goatee. 288 00:17:32,760 --> 00:17:35,920 Aw, you got balloons! There she is! Birthday girl. 289 00:17:35,920 --> 00:17:39,680 Thanks, Aunty Rita. So, tell us all your news. 290 00:17:39,680 --> 00:17:41,600 Oh. Well, let's see, erm... 291 00:17:41,600 --> 00:17:44,440 still loving the job. The admin, yeah? 292 00:17:44,440 --> 00:17:47,600 Yep. Been doing power yoga every day. 293 00:17:48,600 --> 00:17:50,080 Going to meetings, obviously. 294 00:17:50,080 --> 00:17:52,920 Who isn't these days? Oh, don't knock it. 295 00:17:52,920 --> 00:17:54,640 It's where I met this fella. Oh! 296 00:17:54,640 --> 00:17:57,440 And I started a new... Hi. Caroline! 297 00:17:57,440 --> 00:17:59,960 We just saw your fella outside. 298 00:17:59,960 --> 00:18:02,600 Now, remind me, is he the dentist or the actor? 299 00:18:02,600 --> 00:18:03,880 Which one was the actor? 300 00:18:03,880 --> 00:18:05,960 His name's Shane, he's an investment banker. 301 00:18:05,960 --> 00:18:08,280 We've been seeing each other for two months now. 302 00:18:08,280 --> 00:18:10,760 And you met on Tinder? Tinder, Bumble, Hinge... 303 00:18:10,760 --> 00:18:11,960 She casts a wide net. 304 00:18:11,960 --> 00:18:14,840 I'm not making apologies for taking control of my life, Ant. 305 00:18:14,840 --> 00:18:17,080 Good woman! Rory broke up with me. 306 00:18:17,080 --> 00:18:19,680 Am I... sitting at home feeling sorry for myself? 307 00:18:19,680 --> 00:18:22,160 No. I'm getting back out there, and... 308 00:18:22,160 --> 00:18:25,040 I've got a timeline. A timeline? Yep. 309 00:18:25,040 --> 00:18:27,280 I'm gonna make consultant, get married 310 00:18:27,280 --> 00:18:29,560 and pump out two to three babies in the next four years 311 00:18:29,560 --> 00:18:33,000 cos once you let it slide past 35, believe me, you're basically fucked. 312 00:18:33,000 --> 00:18:36,440 Absolutely. Hear, hear! Someone talking sense. 313 00:18:38,040 --> 00:18:40,000 Hello! 314 00:18:42,400 --> 00:18:45,920 I'm not late, am I? Dad, you got a cake! 315 00:18:45,920 --> 00:18:48,280 Ah, just a small one. Snap! 316 00:18:48,280 --> 00:18:50,320 Great minds, eh? 317 00:18:51,760 --> 00:18:54,480 Hey. Hey! There he is. 318 00:18:54,480 --> 00:18:56,800 This is Shane, everyone. Hi, Shane. Hello. 319 00:18:56,800 --> 00:18:59,440 Shane, Finbar... Hi. Hello, Shane. 320 00:18:59,440 --> 00:19:01,560 And you're a banker? Yeah. 321 00:19:01,560 --> 00:19:04,800 Can I get you a drink, Shane? Er, wine, beer, er... 322 00:19:04,800 --> 00:19:06,640 something with flowers. 323 00:19:06,640 --> 00:19:09,200 Nice one. Er, glass of red. Coming up. 324 00:19:09,200 --> 00:19:13,400 So, er... there's something that I'd like to... 325 00:19:13,400 --> 00:19:15,880 Actually, I-I-I might just, erm, 326 00:19:15,880 --> 00:19:18,840 use this opportunity just to... to say a few words. 327 00:19:18,840 --> 00:19:20,840 If you don't mind, Shiv? 328 00:19:20,840 --> 00:19:23,520 You don't have to, Finbar. No, no, I'd... I'd like to, 329 00:19:23,520 --> 00:19:26,120 it's, er, it's a big day. OK. 330 00:19:26,120 --> 00:19:27,560 FINBAR CLEARS THROAT 331 00:19:27,560 --> 00:19:29,480 As many of you know, 332 00:19:29,480 --> 00:19:32,600 I haven't touched a drop of the hard stuff for well over 30 years. 333 00:19:33,760 --> 00:19:37,680 Got sober, got published... the rest is history. 334 00:19:39,240 --> 00:19:41,320 But I can honestly say those first six months 335 00:19:41,320 --> 00:19:43,560 were by far the toughest. 336 00:19:43,560 --> 00:19:45,160 Getting sober takes guts. 337 00:19:45,160 --> 00:19:47,000 It takes humility. 338 00:19:47,000 --> 00:19:48,560 It takes looking at yourself 339 00:19:48,560 --> 00:19:52,560 with an unsparing eye every single day. 340 00:19:52,560 --> 00:19:56,200 And that's why I have so much admiration... 341 00:19:57,520 --> 00:19:58,840 ..for Bernie. Hm?! 342 00:20:02,480 --> 00:20:04,240 Oh, come on. No, no. 343 00:20:04,240 --> 00:20:06,240 It's a very big thing she's done now, 344 00:20:06,240 --> 00:20:07,920 at this stage of her life. 345 00:20:07,920 --> 00:20:10,320 After everything she's been through. 346 00:20:10,320 --> 00:20:12,680 And I think it would be a mark of respect to Bernie 347 00:20:12,680 --> 00:20:16,560 and to this beautiful home that she's created for us 348 00:20:16,560 --> 00:20:18,400 if from now on, 349 00:20:18,400 --> 00:20:22,080 we made this house a booze-free zone. 350 00:20:23,720 --> 00:20:25,640 A what-free zone? 351 00:20:25,640 --> 00:20:28,440 I know we all want to be supportive. 352 00:20:28,440 --> 00:20:30,840 So, if you could just put any alcohol 353 00:20:30,840 --> 00:20:33,880 you've brought this evening... into this. 354 00:20:33,880 --> 00:20:37,400 Are you serious?! Mum, what the...? 355 00:20:42,600 --> 00:20:45,000 BOTTLES CLINK 356 00:20:45,000 --> 00:20:47,320 I'll leave it at the front door, 357 00:20:47,320 --> 00:20:49,000 and you can collect it on the way out. 358 00:20:54,800 --> 00:20:55,960 No problem. 359 00:21:07,080 --> 00:21:10,120 But in here... let's respect the rules. 360 00:21:10,120 --> 00:21:12,520 I mean, finish your drinks, by all means. 361 00:21:12,520 --> 00:21:14,600 It is a party after all. 362 00:21:20,880 --> 00:21:24,360 Marilyn Monroe died at 36. 363 00:21:24,360 --> 00:21:26,080 Hmm. 364 00:21:26,080 --> 00:21:27,880 Princess Diana, too. Mm. 365 00:21:37,080 --> 00:21:40,320 You in a cult? It's my mum's new boyfriend. 366 00:21:40,320 --> 00:21:41,600 It's not normally this wei... 367 00:21:41,600 --> 00:21:43,720 KNOCKING ON DOOR 'Open up! We've got booze!' 368 00:21:47,200 --> 00:21:49,040 Aw, legend! 369 00:21:49,040 --> 00:21:51,800 You're not doing drugs in here, Ant! Why? 370 00:21:52,800 --> 00:21:56,120 It's a week night. Yeah, we're going to town. Yes! 371 00:21:56,120 --> 00:21:58,560 No, I have an early start tomorrow. 372 00:21:58,560 --> 00:22:01,360 Don't be such a fucking grandad! When was the last time we were out? 373 00:22:01,360 --> 00:22:03,240 Oh, you're such a bad influence. 374 00:22:03,240 --> 00:22:05,960 HE SNIFFS DEEPLY, HE SIGHS 375 00:22:05,960 --> 00:22:08,080 Yeah, that's good shit. 376 00:22:17,720 --> 00:22:20,040 Oh, this is gonna be good. Fuck off, Ant! 377 00:22:23,520 --> 00:22:25,120 Oh, ah... 378 00:22:26,640 --> 00:22:28,440 So, how are you, Tom? 379 00:22:29,520 --> 00:22:30,720 Still in the shed? 380 00:22:32,760 --> 00:22:34,720 LAUGHTER FROM BATHROOM 381 00:22:39,960 --> 00:22:42,120 Yeah, what? 382 00:22:42,120 --> 00:22:44,000 Er, do you guys... 383 00:22:44,000 --> 00:22:46,240 wanna play a board game or something? 384 00:22:46,240 --> 00:22:49,480 We're going to town. Mm. All of you? 385 00:22:49,480 --> 00:22:51,960 Yeah. Sorry, Shiv. This party blows. 386 00:22:55,160 --> 00:22:56,520 Our taxi's here. 387 00:22:56,520 --> 00:22:58,440 Is everyone going? It's only eight. 388 00:22:58,440 --> 00:22:59,680 It was just a flying visit. 389 00:23:01,120 --> 00:23:03,080 We can just take these, yeah? Yeah. 390 00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:19,000 Looks like it's just the two of us. 391 00:23:36,360 --> 00:23:38,480 Er, cup of tea? 392 00:23:39,960 --> 00:23:42,080 Er... just a sec. 393 00:23:55,840 --> 00:23:57,160 Mum? 394 00:23:59,120 --> 00:24:00,920 I have something for you. A... 395 00:24:02,160 --> 00:24:04,200 A present. I know it's a bit weird, 396 00:24:04,200 --> 00:24:06,360 me giving you a present on my birthday, but... 397 00:24:08,160 --> 00:24:10,160 Well, let's face it, 36 years ago, 398 00:24:10,160 --> 00:24:12,040 you're the one who did all the heavy lifting. 399 00:24:13,600 --> 00:24:16,200 And it's, you know, it's been kind of a milestone this year 400 00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:17,560 for both of us. 401 00:24:18,720 --> 00:24:21,200 The last seven months haven't exactly been easy. 402 00:24:23,360 --> 00:24:25,200 Jesus! 403 00:24:25,200 --> 00:24:27,720 There are days when I think back on some of the... 404 00:24:29,720 --> 00:24:31,720 God, I wanted... 405 00:24:34,240 --> 00:24:37,760 Well, I-I think about you and, erm, 406 00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:40,480 the changes you've made and the way you've accepted things... 407 00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:42,800 ..accepted me. 408 00:24:44,480 --> 00:24:45,760 And, erm... 409 00:24:47,280 --> 00:24:49,000 ..you know, it gives me strength... 410 00:24:50,280 --> 00:24:52,040 ..knowing I'm not on my own. 411 00:24:54,680 --> 00:24:58,920 Cos 36 years ago, we started one journey together, and... 412 00:25:01,120 --> 00:25:04,200 ..seven months ago, we started another, and... 413 00:25:06,480 --> 00:25:08,160 ..I guess... 414 00:25:10,120 --> 00:25:13,640 ..I guess I just wanted to say, er... 415 00:25:13,640 --> 00:25:15,680 here's to new beginnings. 416 00:25:23,560 --> 00:25:25,640 Will I... well, just leave it out here, or...? 417 00:25:25,640 --> 00:25:27,720 DOOR OPENS 418 00:25:28,840 --> 00:25:30,520 I can give it to her. 419 00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:33,880 Didn't want to interrupt. Beautiful words. 420 00:25:33,880 --> 00:25:36,800 TOILET FLUSHES 421 00:25:43,880 --> 00:25:46,680 Shiv got you a present. Aw. 422 00:25:48,280 --> 00:25:49,920 So thoughtful. 423 00:25:51,160 --> 00:25:53,000 Can I open it tomorrow? 424 00:25:53,000 --> 00:25:54,480 Mm-hm. 425 00:25:55,480 --> 00:25:57,040 Good night, love. 426 00:26:00,280 --> 00:26:02,360 BERNIE LAUGHS 427 00:26:02,360 --> 00:26:03,920 'Ooh!' 428 00:26:09,400 --> 00:26:11,440 SHE INHALES DEEPLY 429 00:26:11,440 --> 00:26:13,200 SHE SIGHS 430 00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:25,640 Outside the store 431 00:26:25,640 --> 00:26:29,320 With the sliding doors 432 00:26:29,320 --> 00:26:33,560 So I won't be long 433 00:26:33,560 --> 00:26:37,360 With the engine on 434 00:26:37,360 --> 00:26:41,680 And the magazines 435 00:26:41,680 --> 00:26:45,600 Oh, I guess we've caused a scene 436 00:26:45,600 --> 00:26:49,840 But you wear it well 437 00:26:49,840 --> 00:26:54,240 You can probably tell... 438 00:26:58,320 --> 00:27:00,640 MUSIC PLAYS FROM CLUB 439 00:27:21,320 --> 00:27:22,880 Shiv! 440 00:27:28,680 --> 00:27:30,800 I was... just in the area. 441 00:27:32,240 --> 00:27:35,000 Oh. Handy. 442 00:27:40,560 --> 00:27:42,200 Can I buy you a drink? 443 00:27:44,680 --> 00:27:48,360 Down the cul-de-sac 444 00:27:48,360 --> 00:27:52,520 Then, babe, I'll hit you back 445 00:27:52,520 --> 00:27:56,480 Climbing up the steps 446 00:27:56,480 --> 00:28:00,560 Cos I like you best 447 00:28:00,560 --> 00:28:06,520 Looking for your invite 448 00:28:06,520 --> 00:28:10,400 Might change the game 449 00:28:10,400 --> 00:28:14,680 I knew it the first night 450 00:28:14,680 --> 00:28:18,200 About to change... 451 00:28:18,200 --> 00:28:20,240 Subtitles by accessibility@itv.com